DESIRES

I Tried to change,

Closed my mouth more,

Tried to be soft, prettier,less awake

Fasted for sixty days

Wore white

Abstained from mirrors

Abstained from sex

Slowly did I speak another word

And that time my hair grew past my ankles

I slept on a Matt on the floor

I swallowed the sword

I levitated

In the bathroom

Confessed my sins and I was baptized in a river

Got on my knees and said Amen and said Amin

I whipped my own back and asked for Dominion at your feet

I threw myself into a volcano

I drank the blood,I drank the wine

I sat alone in bed and begged at the waste for God

I crossed myself in thoughts

I saw the devil

I grew thick in skin on my feet

I bathed and bleached and plugged my menses with pages from the holy book

But still inside me coiled deep was the need to know

Are you CHEATING on me??

-Beyonce-


I’m not sure what tommorow bring us

I may regret what we’ve done tonight

He may push me away again

Our future is uncertain

Everything is uncertain

I’m grateful for the night I get to lose myself in him

We both need this

I coocon myself in his arms and let my imminent slumber overtake me but I cannot bring myself to sleep

Memories come flooding back to me like a whirlwind

I know this isn’t just sex

It’s something more than that

I hope he notices that too

But does he regret it?

There’s still so much I don’t know about him

Do I let it bother me?

There’s no doubt in my mind that I wanted what happened last evening. I only wanted to show him how I want him

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I slightly blush at the thought

I can recall how vividly our bodies molded with each other

We all craved for more and lost count of how many times it happened

I often found my hands over his chest and rigid muscles.There was so much for me to explore.

I woke up from my slumber,tilted my head and noticed the absence of his sexy body

My heart drops I scan for any Trace of him.

There’s no sign of him. Reluctantly I stand up picking my clothes from the drawers…is it so obvious that he wants me to leave now .

His absence tells me that he and I need space,so I guess I should give him some.

I’m literally having a battle with myself. I don’t know if I should go over to him or nah . We prolly need space after what happened.

All I could think of is am I your only one?


Hello loves😍😍

Yet another year❤ Happy New year ❤

Keep it Kenyan 🇰🇪🇰🇪

Xoxo😍❤🔥

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