I Tried to change,
Closed my mouth more,
Tried to be soft, prettier,less awake
Fasted for sixty days
Abstained from mirrors
Abstained from sex
Slowly did I speak another word
And that time my hair grew past my ankles
I slept on a Matt on the floor
I swallowed the sword
In the bathroom
Confessed my sins and I was baptized in a river
Got on my knees and said Amen and said Amin
I whipped my own back and asked for Dominion at your feet
I threw myself into a volcano
I drank the blood,I drank the wine
I sat alone in bed and begged at the waste for God
I crossed myself in thoughts
I saw the devil
I grew thick in skin on my feet
I bathed and bleached and plugged my menses with pages from the holy book
But still inside me coiled deep was the need to know
Are you CHEATING on me??
I’m not sure what tommorow bring us
I may regret what we’ve done tonight
He may push me away again
Our future is uncertain
Everything is uncertain
I’m grateful for the night I get to lose myself in him
We both need this
I coocon myself in his arms and let my imminent slumber overtake me but I cannot bring myself to sleep
Memories come flooding back to me like a whirlwind
I know this isn’t just sex
It’s something more than that
I hope he notices that too
But does he regret it?
There’s still so much I don’t know about him
Do I let it bother me?
There’s no doubt in my mind that I wanted what happened last evening. I only wanted to show him how I want him
I slightly blush at the thought
I can recall how vividly our bodies molded with each other
We all craved for more and lost count of how many times it happened
I often found my hands over his chest and rigid muscles.There was so much for me to explore.
I woke up from my slumber,tilted my head and noticed the absence of his sexy body
My heart drops I scan for any Trace of him.
There’s no sign of him. Reluctantly I stand up picking my clothes from the drawers…is it so obvious that he wants me to leave now .
His absence tells me that he and I need space,so I guess I should give him some.
I’m literally having a battle with myself. I don’t know if I should go over to him or nah . We prolly need space after what happened.
All I could think of is am I your only one?
Yet another year❤ Happy New year ❤
Keep it Kenyan 🇰🇪🇰🇪