I Tried to change,

Closed my mouth more,

Tried to be soft, prettier,less awake

Fasted for sixty days

Wore white

Abstained from mirrors

Abstained from sex

Slowly did I speak another word

And that time my hair grew past my ankles

I slept on a Matt on the floor

I swallowed the sword

I levitated

In the bathroom

Confessed my sins and I was baptized in a river

Got on my knees and said Amen and said Amin

I whipped my own back and asked for Dominion at your feet

I threw myself into a volcano

I drank the blood,I drank the wine

I sat alone in bed and begged at the waste for God

I crossed myself in thoughts

I saw the devil

I grew thick in skin on my feet

I bathed and bleached and plugged my menses with pages from the holy book

But still inside me coiled deep was the need to know

Are you CHEATING on me??


I’m not sure what tommorow bring us

I may regret what we’ve done tonight

He may push me away again

Our future is uncertain

Everything is uncertain

I’m grateful for the night I get to lose myself in him

We both need this

I coocon myself in his arms and let my imminent slumber overtake me but I cannot bring myself to sleep

Memories come flooding back to me like a whirlwind

I know this isn’t just sex

It’s something more than that

I hope he notices that too

But does he regret it?

There’s still so much I don’t know about him

Do I let it bother me?

There’s no doubt in my mind that I wanted what happened last evening. I only wanted to show him how I want him

I slightly blush at the thought

I can recall how vividly our bodies molded with each other

We all craved for more and lost count of how many times it happened

I often found my hands over his chest and rigid muscles.There was so much for me to explore.

I woke up from my slumber,tilted my head and noticed the absence of his sexy body

My heart drops I scan for any Trace of him.

There’s no sign of him. Reluctantly I stand up picking my clothes from the drawers…is it so obvious that he wants me to leave now .

His absence tells me that he and I need space,so I guess I should give him some.

I’m literally having a battle with myself. I don’t know if I should go over to him or nah . We prolly need space after what happened.

All I could think of is am I your only one?

Hello loves😍😍

Yet another year❤ Happy New year ❤

Keep it Kenyan 🇰🇪🇰🇪



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